Appointment the Other Day

I've been slacking a bit on the latest from my last appointment on Tuesday. All seemed pretty uneventful, and I had to wait for what seemed like forever before I could see the midwife after I did the customary pee in a cup, weight and blood pressure check.

Soon after my midwife came into the room, she immediately wanted to check my blood pressure again. I guess the first reading was pretty high and she was concerned. She took it again and it had gone down a little bit which was better. But I was a little alarmed. She asked if I had been having headaches, and as a matter of fact, all last weekend I was suffering from terrible ones but I chalked it up to sinus headaches. She said that she is going to want me to come in a little more often to check my blood pressure to see if this will be a real concern. So I get to go back again next week to do my glucose test (oh joy!), get my quad screen, and of course check the blood pressure. She said if it still shows as being high, then I might have to be treated with medication. Great.

But I then got a quick ultrasound and saw the sweet baby again. It has grown so much bigger and the heart was beating away. That relieved me a bit. Everything else was ok, no weight gain still, seem to be eating healthy (sort-of).

I'm trying not to worry about the blood pressure thing too much. I'm only 14 weeks. I've read about preeclampsia, and all the fun that goes along with it. At this point I know that it's not that, it's too early. Could just be some minor hypertension brought on by anything. Could have been just a fluke. Could have been anxiety about the appointment (I was a little worried about seeing if the baby and the heartbeat were still there... it was). Could have been the quantity of salt I've been eating, or my lack of water drinking. So I'm praying that all will be well next week. Please pray that it is.

14 Weeks 3 Days

17 Teenagers Knocked Up? On Purpose?

What the hell happened to the world? So 17 girls in one school in MA, no older than the age of 16, have all gotten knocked up. And allegedly it was on purpose... some "pregnancy pact" that these girls made. WTF?

Do these girls have any idea what they are in for? Do they know the likelihood of them being in poverty because of their teen pregnancy? It is such a sick sad situation, especially since many of these girls have no business having children at that age.

I think many of them envision that baby bumps are "cute", and how "cute" they will look walking down the halls at school with a kick ass stroller. How "cute" will they think it is when they have a screaming infant at 3am, formula and diapers to pay for, or the fact that they can't go out with friends or do anything because they have another human being to take care of?

Many in the media say teen pregnancy has been normalized by things such as the movie Juno. I recently saw that movie, and maybe it glamorizes teen pregnancy just a touch, but not much. The character Juno is wise well beyond her years and in fact unlike any teenager I have meet in my life. What teenager talks like that?

I think what really normalized teen pregnancy in these teens' minds is the fact that their own school had a free in-house daycare, and even encouraged students to use it in their freshman sex-ed class. "How cool!! I get pg in high school and I won't have to worry because the school will take care of my kid!" *barf*

What ever happened to those after school specials? You know, the ones that showed teen pregnancy and how sucky it makes life, how hard it is, and how people will shun and look down on you. Basically the ones that scared the crap out of kids to never have sex... ever. Heck, those slide shows in health class showing all the gross std pictures were enough for me to remain a virgin for a long time.

Well whatever. It'll be interesting to see how many of these girls make a good decision to give up the babies to loving couples, how many make something of themselves as single moms, or how many become drains on the welfare system.

I just hope to God that if I have daughters, that I will have raised them with the brains enough not to do something like this. Or I can put the fear of god in them about sex like my mother did.

Why can't I be half as fertile as some of these crazy bitches in MA? I've worked hard, I'm ready maturity wise & financially, and I deserve a baby.

To Cut or Not to Cut

I love me some caffeine. My morning cup of coffee has become my normal weekday routine now. I wasn't always like that. It has been only in the last 6-8 months that I started regularly drinking coffee, other than the occasional trip to Starbucks. Then I asked for a coffee maker for Christmas. I got one of those wonderful Keurig coffee makers with those fun little "k-cups" that makes a single cup of coffee at a time. Now it's a habit.

Now that we are embarking on an adventure into baby-land I am starting to think that I may need to cut this new habit that I've started. I've read and read all sorts of opinions, and even asked my midwife mom, but haven't come up with a consistent answer.

So should I cut it out now before I become pregnant? Or wait until I see two lines on that test? Or should I even cut out the caffeine at all, pregnant or not? I am only drinking about 1 cup of coffee a day, and maybe have an occasional diet soda (to which Mr H2O hates). And some places say that caffeine moderation is ok, so one cup won't hurt.

It seems to be a controvercial subject. I'm not sure which side of the debate I'm on. But I'm leaning towards getting my morning fix until I see those two BFP lines.

I Must Stop Reading The Scary Stuff

Some of the my faborite blogs the I like to follow lately are the ones regarding pregnancy/fertility/ttc. I especially love the honest ones that tells it to you like it is. They talk about the real stuff "they" (they = moms/doctors/the rest of the world) don't tell you. Yes, I'm baby obsessed. It is part of my sickness.

Well some of these great funny ladies have recently had their babies. Their birth stories can sound scary enough, but I have come to expect that. Births can have all sorts of twists and turns and it of course is painful. But now I'm reading about the joys of post-partum... now that is scaring the crap out of me. The bleeding, the stitches, the swelling, the pain, the catheters, etc. This is the stuf they seriously don't tell you. It must be the "mom-nesia" that everyone talks about that makes them forget all the crappy stuff that happens afterwards.

I seriously need to stop reading all this before it changes my mind.