Reason For My 6 Week Absence

Joseph Edward Barber
Arrived May 8, 2009
8:12pm
6lbs, 12oz

It's been quite an eventful 6 weeks . So much to tell, including a short NICU stay and all. But of course, I have been a little occupied. We are enjoying loving on our Joey. He is the greatest baby... But maybe I'm a little biased.
More pictures and stories will follow, I promise!

Birthday Was Great

My birthday yesterday was a great day. I got to relax most of the day, then get a little dressed up to do by one of my favorite restaurant's. Here we are at Doc's after our yummy dinner.

Then we went off to the boardwalk for awhile to walk off dinner and spend a few minutes in the casino and promptly lost our money. It was fun.

Over dinner we kind of got into a philosophical discussion about how we are going to raise our children with faith, and what exactly we are going to teach them. See, Mr. H2O and I are kind of going through a "crisis of faith" so to speak. We like the morals and the teachings of religion that we have been taught through our life, but in our minds, organized religion is flawed because of the fact they are run and governed by humans (who are fundamentally flawed to begin with). Therefor that is one main reason (among others) that we do not practice a formal religion at this time (both of us were raised catholic). We believe in some sort of higher power and hope that there is something more after we are gone, but we just don't know.

Now this is all well and good to go about our spirituality in this fashion for ourselves. But now that we are going to bring children into this world, we are going to become responsible for their spiritual development. And so what do we teach them? what do we go with? Do we baptise our kid even if we don't necessarily believe? These are all the things that we are tossing around, and have come to some decisions that will work for us... though I'm sure there are family members that would give us grief.

I'll cross that bridge when I come to it.

Today's Birthday Horoscope

I'm a Cancer and I pretty much almost fit that profile to a tee. So here's my horoscope today. I think it's interesting, all good things.

Intensity characterizes many of your pursuits this year as you focus on what matters most to you and weed out frivolous endeavors. You are feeling light and free when it comes to expressing yourself this year--your personality is sparkling! Solid progress in mental pursuits can be made. More

And for kicks, here are some of my new mantras or afirmations I am utilizing...

All is well. I am safe.
The universe is conspiring in my favor.
I am healthy. I am strong. I am fertile.
From this experience, only good will come.

Happy Birthday to Me!

Today I start the last year of my 20's. Hooray for me. I don't feel older, and it doesn't really bother me (as much as my siblings try and rub in the fact they think I'm "old). 29 is no big deal. And the fact that I'm almost 30 is no big deal either.

Tonight Mr. H2O and I are going to one of my favorite nice restaurants in Atlantic City for dinner, Doc's Oyster House. It's usually our anniversary spot, but since we didn't really do anything for our anniversary in May, I thought it would be nice a good idea to go there. It has a great "old fashioned" romantic ambiance, like a nice seafood/steakhouse straight out of the 30's or 40's. The food is fabulous too. The french fried shoestring beets are the best (the only beets that I will ever eat).

The "kid before I'm 30" deadline is closing in, but that's ok. I'm remaining positive that it will happen. It's cycle #6, CD 8, and I'm awaiting the O in hopefully the next week or so. It'll be fun. Let's give that bitch AF an knock out punch and get KTFU.

NEXT!

No luck on this last one. Now I'm on to cycle #5. I know everyone was waiting with baited breath.

Mr. H2O says that I'm putting all this pressure on myself. I disagree. I mean I do have this thing about wanting to have at least 1 kid before I turn 30. And since my 29th birthday is a month away, my time for that goal is running out in a few months. But it won't be the end of the world if our first kid doesn't arrive before then.

Am I setting myself up for disappointment? I don't think so. Sure, I am a little disappointed when AF arrives instead of a bfp, but I need to keep a positive attitude and move on to the next chance. It's not time to freak out yet.

Nope, I'm just on to a new cycle where I hope that we sucessfully knock out AF on her ass and have a healthy baby on the way. I hope this will be the one.