Sunday, June 29, 2008

Another 2ww - Some Craziness Ensues

I had another PCOS victory in that I actually O'd again, so that makes me happy. Now I've entered another 2ww, and that means 2 weeks of waiting, wondering, and acting sort of like a crazy person.

So what are my crazy person symptoms? Well, I seem to have the need to feel myself up every now and to verify that my boobs are indeed tender (and they are). I also psych myself out about every twinge, headache, etc that are pg symptoms from my phantom baby (probably more like a food baby).

Another crazy person symptom is that I seem to wander into the baby sections at local retailers with the overwhelming urge to buy just 1 thing to save for Mr. H2O to give him when I get that elusive BFP. And I actually do it. Nothing big, just a onesie that says "My Daddy is #1". I've been buying little things like that here and there for the past year that will be a cute gift to give him when I do get my BFP. I like cheeky, sarcastic onsies and "daddy" themed things that I think he would enjoy, and get him excited.

Some people say that doing the above will just jinx us... I guess I'm sometimes surround by lots of superstitious people. But I don't want to be superstitious. I want to have hope. I do have hope. And I am so freakin' excited for the day where I get to surprise Mr. H2O with a positive pee stick and some of the goodies I've been saving for our baby.

Wednesday, June 25, 2008

17 Teenagers Knocked Up? On Purpose?

What the hell happened to the world? So 17 girls in one school in MA, no older than the age of 16, have all gotten knocked up. And allegedly it was on purpose... some "pregnancy pact" that these girls made. WTF?

Do these girls have any idea what they are in for? Do they know the likelihood of them being in poverty because of their teen pregnancy? It is such a sick sad situation, especially since many of these girls have no business having children at that age.

I think many of them envision that baby bumps are "cute", and how "cute" they will look walking down the halls at school with a kick ass stroller. How "cute" will they think it is when they have a screaming infant at 3am, formula and diapers to pay for, or the fact that they can't go out with friends or do anything because they have another human being to take care of?

Many in the media say teen pregnancy has been normalized by things such as the movie Juno. I recently saw that movie, and maybe it glamorizes teen pregnancy just a touch, but not much. The character Juno is wise well beyond her years and in fact unlike any teenager I have meet in my life. What teenager talks like that?

I think what really normalized teen pregnancy in these teens' minds is the fact that their own school had a free in-house daycare, and even encouraged students to use it in their freshman sex-ed class. "How cool!! I get pg in high school and I won't have to worry because the school will take care of my kid!" *barf*

What ever happened to those after school specials? You know, the ones that showed teen pregnancy and how sucky it makes life, how hard it is, and how people will shun and look down on you. Basically the ones that scared the crap out of kids to never have sex... ever. Heck, those slide shows in health class showing all the gross std pictures were enough for me to remain a virgin for a long time.

Well whatever. It'll be interesting to see how many of these girls make a good decision to give up the babies to loving couples, how many make something of themselves as single moms, or how many become drains on the welfare system.

I just hope to God that if I have daughters, that I will have raised them with the brains enough not to do something like this. Or I can put the fear of god in them about sex like my mother did.

Why can't I be half as fertile as some of these crazy bitches in MA? I've worked hard, I'm ready maturity wise & financially, and I deserve a baby.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Back to Life

We have our house back to ourselves agan. It's nice to get back to routine and all, but it is a little sad to have the house a little emptier after everyone has left.

I just spent last week hosting my mom, brother and sister at my house for some fun. We did all the things you do out here, shopping, visiting the city and heading down the shore for a day. And we were even lucky enough to catch a performance by Mr. H2O's band too. I really had a whole lot of fun while they were here. I only get to see my family once or twice a year, so I need to make the most of it.

Then we dropped lil' sis off in NY and she is heading to South Africa for the next 5 months. She is going to have the most amazing experience there and I am so happy for her. But I already miss her a little too. Spending 8 hours in the car to drop her off and drive back home was a little, well... boring/annoying/monotonous (you spend 8 hours with your mom in a car and tell me how fun it is... really, I love you mom, but in slightly smaller doses).

And though it's a little sad to have the house empty again, it is nice too.

CD 16 (where's the O?)

Sunday, June 15, 2008

Happy Fathers Day

Happy Father's Day to my dad today! I must not forget to call him today.

I am sincerely hoping that next year's father's day will be Mr. H2O's first. He will be such a great dad. Even my mom said so (shocking I know). Can't wait.

On another note, we had a great time last night at our friend's house warming/bbq/kegger party. It was hot and humid as hell, but Tom's parties are always fun. The band played, the cops came once (but we had until 10pm so screw the psycho neighbor 3 blocks over), and then the band's set got cut short due to the insane thunderstorm that came through. I've never seen the band's stuff get packed up so fast. And I might have let slip that we are ttc to some of the gals, but oh well. It's hard to hide the clear fact that I have babies on the brain much of the time.

CD 7

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

*giggle snort*

I think it's funny that my google ads are showing links to towels and cleaning sites. Ha!


No luck on this last one. Now I'm on to cycle #5. I know everyone was waiting with baited breath.

Mr. H2O says that I'm putting all this pressure on myself. I disagree. I mean I do have this thing about wanting to have at least 1 kid before I turn 30. And since my 29th birthday is a month away, my time for that goal is running out in a few months. But it won't be the end of the world if our first kid doesn't arrive before then.

Am I setting myself up for disappointment? I don't think so. Sure, I am a little disappointed when AF arrives instead of a bfp, but I need to keep a positive attitude and move on to the next chance. It's not time to freak out yet.

Nope, I'm just on to a new cycle where I hope that we sucessfully knock out AF on her ass and have a healthy baby on the way. I hope this will be the one.

Tuesday, June 3, 2008

My Towels Are Not Soft Enough

I am halfway through the 2WW trying to keep myself occupied for the next 7 days before I obsess about testing or not. (and I am DETERMINED not to test early) So now I'm obsessing about my towels and how they are not as soft as they could be.

We were just out of town and spent one of those nights at our friend's house. Well I noticed that their towels are so nice and soft. My towels seem almost "crispy" and it drives me crazy. So I went in search on how to keep our towels soft and fluffy.

1. Wash towels in warm water. Avoid too hot of water or drying temperatures as that may cause shrinkage.
2. Use half the ammount of detergent as stated on the detergent label and never pour detergent directly on them. If detergent does not rinse out completely it could build up a residue and cause stiffness.
3. Do not use fabric softeners on your towels. It can cause build-up and ruin a towel's absorbency. Acts as a repellent rather than absorber.
4. Deeply colored towels shoudl not be washed with light colored towels.
5. Add 1/2 cup of baking soda to the water of your wash to help increase softness and keep them smelling fresh.
6. Tumble drying towels in a dryer as opposed to line drying, makes towels much fluffier.

So there. I will try all that and make my towels much more soft instead of scratchy. Now what's my next project to obsess about?