Another 2ww - Some Craziness Ensues

I had another PCOS victory in that I actually O'd again, so that makes me happy. Now I've entered another 2ww, and that means 2 weeks of waiting, wondering, and acting sort of like a crazy person.

So what are my crazy person symptoms? Well, I seem to have the need to feel myself up every now and to verify that my boobs are indeed tender (and they are). I also psych myself out about every twinge, headache, etc that are pg symptoms from my phantom baby (probably more like a food baby).

Another crazy person symptom is that I seem to wander into the baby sections at local retailers with the overwhelming urge to buy just 1 thing to save for Mr. H2O to give him when I get that elusive BFP. And I actually do it. Nothing big, just a onesie that says "My Daddy is #1". I've been buying little things like that here and there for the past year that will be a cute gift to give him when I do get my BFP. I like cheeky, sarcastic onsies and "daddy" themed things that I think he would enjoy, and get him excited.

Some people say that doing the above will just jinx us... I guess I'm sometimes surround by lots of superstitious people. But I don't want to be superstitious. I want to have hope. I do have hope. And I am so freakin' excited for the day where I get to surprise Mr. H2O with a positive pee stick and some of the goodies I've been saving for our baby.

My Towels Are Not Soft Enough

I am halfway through the 2WW trying to keep myself occupied for the next 7 days before I obsess about testing or not. (and I am DETERMINED not to test early) So now I'm obsessing about my towels and how they are not as soft as they could be.

We were just out of town and spent one of those nights at our friend's house. Well I noticed that their towels are so nice and soft. My towels seem almost "crispy" and it drives me crazy. So I went in search on how to keep our towels soft and fluffy.

1. Wash towels in warm water. Avoid too hot of water or drying temperatures as that may cause shrinkage.
2. Use half the ammount of detergent as stated on the detergent label and never pour detergent directly on them. If detergent does not rinse out completely it could build up a residue and cause stiffness.
3. Do not use fabric softeners on your towels. It can cause build-up and ruin a towel's absorbency. Acts as a repellent rather than absorber.
4. Deeply colored towels shoudl not be washed with light colored towels.
5. Add 1/2 cup of baking soda to the water of your wash to help increase softness and keep them smelling fresh.
6. Tumble drying towels in a dryer as opposed to line drying, makes towels much fluffier.

So there. I will try all that and make my towels much more soft instead of scratchy. Now what's my next project to obsess about?

Happy 4th Anniversary!

Happy Anniversary to us! Today is our 4th wedding anniversary. Not doing anything that's spectacularly romantic. Just taking a road trip out west to Mr H2O's college reunion, spending tonight in Pittsburgh.

We've been a couple for a total of 8 years and iIt's been a fun 4 years of marriage with just the two of us. Now we are so ready to expand our family of 2 to something bigger.

Speaking of which, my temp rose another day, so it looks like my ovaries finally got with the program and I'm moving on to the 2WW. Need one more high temp to confirm, but yeah, I'm pretty sure it happened. Yeah ME! Now I need to pray for some patience the next 12 days.

Yeah, it's been long

Ok, so it's been a little while. Not too much has changed, but a little has. Mr. H2O received a big promotion at the beginning of the year so that was exciting. And my business has grown significantly in the first half of this year... hence why I've been MIA for awhile.

Let's see... Much of the weight I lost last year came back on. But I'm now back on the right track again thanks to a gym membership and WW. So things are looking up. I've also had a major attitude adjustment and am starting to delve into this "law of attraction" thing and just having more of an overall positive and joyful outlook, in my business and my life.

I'm still baby-crazy as ever. But the Mr and I are hoping that it'll be our turn soon.

I promise, I won't let it go that long anymore.

All is calm in H2O Land

Today is a good day. It is sunny and not too hot or humid and I like it that way. And Mr. H2O is out of town on a business trip today so I have plenty of extra time to work today without worrying about what to do for dinner or if all the laundry is done.

Today, I also have a new sense of clarity. Last night, Mr H2O and I turned off all radio, TV, and closed the laptops and just spent time in the quiet talking with no distractions. It was really nice. I think we should do this one night a week, and I recommend it to every married couple.

And we were finally able to talk over the baby issue (my latest obsession) and really TALK about it. And the good thing is now I've been let in on the secret of what will take us from almost to Yes. It makes sense and I am totally ok with it. And now I know what goal and timeline that we are shooting for and I feel so much better. That was the part that was driving me crazy. The unknown staring me in the face and my impatience was getting the better of me.

I feel good and I'm excited. But this is our secret and our lips are sealed. So when are we go to start trying? No one is going to get it out of me. Even Mom. So stop asking.

Married Life of H2O

Just celebrated our 3rd wedding anniversary! Yeah!

Mr. H2O and I celebrated 3 married years together on Tuesday (the 29th). We went and had a nice quiet dinner at one of my favorite places, Dock's Oyster House in Atlantic City and we practically closed the place down. It was a weekday after Memorial Day weekend an we came in a bit later in the evening, so obviously it was not very busy. But it was nice, we had the place almost to ourselves. I love that restaurant, but it is really only a place we can go for special occasions like that since it's a bit expensive.

Overall, it's been a great three years. Sometimes it feels like longer, but that's because we've been together about 7 years now. We've enjoyed being married and our time as just to two of us. But I think the time of being just the two of us is coming to an end... well at least I hope it is coming to an end... soon.

I of course have total baby fever and it's growing by the day. I've probably had it for the whole 3 years we've been married, but now it is getting unbearable. Now it seems everyone I know has just found out they are pregnant or just had a baby. Don't get me wrong, I am totally thrilled for all of them and so happy that they are starting their families. But I want it to be my turn now, it is time. Mr. H2O is making us wait.

What's the hurry? I'm not in a hurry, it's just time. I've always wanted to be a mom my whole life, and I'm at the perfect point in my life to be able to do that with my home business and our improved money sitution. I'm almost 28, and though a lot would say that I "have plenty of time", I was diagnosed with PCOS and that's a strike against me. I'm worried about what problems that will cause and if we don't start now, as I get older it will be harder to conceive. My grandma always says 90% of the things you worry about never happen... but I'm still gonna worry.

At this point, Mr. H2O says he's at "almost". Now I'm just trying to figure out what takes him from "almost" to "sure let's go for it". In the meantime, I'll just look at all the pictures of my friends and families' babies and nurseries and hope my turn is coming soon.